I'm not behaving the way I really want to these days. It's like when I used to get high regularly and then act out. I feel like I'm making the same mistakes. I keep maing people mad at me. Sometimes I think it would be better if I didn't see anyone or even talk to anyone.
But that's not what I hear in my support group. They say that if I talk about my behavior and my feelings, if I let out some of the hurt, I will feel better. It's when I keep the feelings inside that I start to spiral down. To be open or ask for help right now is hard for me, yet it looks lie that's what I need to do for my recovery.
I will be sure to get in touch, and stay in touch, with my counselor, sponsor or a trusted friend.